Alas, the letter I was expecting arrived today - with the word I was hoping wouldn't - "denied."
"The information provided does not meet clinical criteria for coverage of this drug." Well, bite me already. They also claim that I/we - my doctor included, as he wrote an awesome letter, "all internal appeals have been exhausted." However, IF I'm still dissatisfied with their decision, you know, because maybe I'm really OK with it! I have the right to bring a civil action - wait - I'm not exactly feeling civil at the moment.
What I am feeling, is actually impossible to describe other than beyond frustrated. How is it, that I have been on a medication that has worked for me for two years, has suddenly been forced away by "Clinical Services Department" of my insurance company??? Even though, both my Internist AND my prescribing Neurologist have sent letters stating WHY I need the medication, why it works for me. What hasn't, to be exact, in the past; which hospitals I've been admitted to in and out of state, and how many times. Not to mention the IV therapy that has been used.
So where do I go from here? Since all of my meds are "off-label" as a treatment for Migraine Disease, what makes this different? How do I make them understand the necessity for me? Am I suddenly going to slowly go downhill? Sadly, that is a question I have been avoiding to allow myself to even face. And yet, I know the reality is, I may. Afterall, my quality of life really did improve shortly after starting the medication they've decided I mustn't take.
The evil, nasty person deep inside of me; is secretly wishing mean and awful monsters on the person or persons who have made this decision on my behalf. Hey, let's be honest here, migraines totally suck. I don't want to live like I did. My kids don't deserve it; my husband doesn't - man, I don't deserve it.
Tomorrow, I see my neuro; I'm hoping he has something up his sleeve. For now; I'm up for any ideas you may have. right now, I have a migraine.
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
This is the chalk drawing Marisa did on the Boardwalk during the "Chalk the Walk Explosion" contest while we were on vacation. She had been looking forward to this for a month. Pretty exciting. There were some neat drawings from kids to professionals - but I'm just giving up my girls today.
This is the USS Wisconsin we boarded on a very hot and sticky day. The kids loved this. They are under the turrets.
here. The size of this ship is just incredible.
So this is what vacation does to us, it is exhausting. It absolutely destressed us. We all needed that. We were pent up with stress, each of us.
Yesterday, the kids had their friends over and gave out their souveniers and played games. It was nice to see them all. To be back in the normal life again. Frank and Marisa will be getting our bouncy dog back today. But first, he will be getting a bath; as he is going to stink. Can't wait to see him. Even Rocco has souveniers.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
At long last, we are finally on vacation. We have safely landed at our very beautiful destination and are having a wonderful time. However; getting the pics to load has taken way too long, so I am only giving up a few for now. The lobster is Frank.
And then......it stormed. HARD. And they/we received 2.6 inches of rain. In a matter of just a few short hours. And it has cooled down to about 80.
Nicholas woke up up this morning with a raging fever, sore throat, headache, and after a few hours, he barfed. He just woke up from a little nap. Fevered again. Poor guy. So much for our little surprise for today. Hopefully tomorrow.
Lunch time at the condo. ta ta.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Monday, July 14, 2008
Monday, July 07, 2008
Look how big our Pancakes is getting! Now that we've separated them, Hyrup is finally eating. No more mating for these two lovebirds.
Friday, July 04, 2008
This post is entirely dedicated to the men and women who have served and do serve our country, in order to allow us the freedoms we still maintain.
Make no mistake about it, we are losing our freedoms little by little; yet they fight. For you. For me.
Many live, but some die. A sacrifice they knew they must take; for their country, for their cause. Their life, for yours.
Have a safe and happy Independance Day.